Drowning and Afraid

August 13th, 2015 I left my home for my new beginning. I entered the house on August 18th, 2015 and these past few months definitely haven't been easy. There are moments where there is loneliness, anxiousness, afraid, undetermined, unmotivated, happy, excited, etc.. just about any feeling out there. As I am reading what I wrote <--- those words.. I'm not even sure if this is coherent.

At first, I really wanted to excel in school and do well, but now, I feel like I just want to get by, pass all of my classes that is necessary of me to get to the next step. But really, that's not what formation is about, I'm supposed to get formed here. There are so many distractions, like how I'm avoiding reading and my assignments to write this.

Let me tell you future me, it does get better, just hang in there and you'll be just find. Just look up at your wall and see your support system and those back at "home" that are praying for you and supporting you.

So I wanted to start this new blogspot to track my journey though the windy city of Chicago. I can definitively say there has been ups and there has been some downs. However, I don't think i'd have it any other ways. I think with this, I can really experience Christ's love for all.

I can say that I need a lot of practice, patience, and more.. I am not always doing the things that I say I'd do (read bible, complete spiritual exercise, etc.), and then I would do the things that I said I wouldn't do (procrastinate, not do homework, etc.) that then, in itself creates inner turmoil since I know what I should and shouldn't do.

I hope to use this space to really document my story and of my journey. I'm not sure why will actually come across this page. I may or may not put links of this anywhere. We'll see.